Marysa is 6 months old today! Where did the time go? It seems like just yesterday I was sitting in the hospital bed holding her and admiring the precious little girl I had been carrying for 9 months and now she's eating baby food, sitting up, and is beginning to develop her very own attitude...I mean personality. Me and Josh joke about how we think she will definately be the "class clown". On a more serious note I've done a lot of thinking these past couple days leading up to our baby turning half a year old. I've mostly done a lot of thinking about what type of mother I always said I would and wouldn't be and what type of mother I am. Before Marysa I was the one who believed that all kids needed is a good spanking and that my child will NEVER sleep in the bed with me and that babies need to be on a schedule and well this list could go on an on, but I won't bore you with my deep thoughts and my "hard to face" reality that my baby is growing up. However, the type of mother I am is completely different. I look at Marysa and I think how could I spank her...yes I know one day I will see how I can spank her but right now I'm not ready to take that step. Don't get me wrong I do believe in spanking. Next, Marysa does get in the bed with me sometimes and it is the best thing in the world snuggling with her and waking up to her little hazel eyes staring into mine. It's so sweet how she reaches out to touch me or Josh just to make sure we are still there and then she quietly drifts back off to sleep. Alright now I'm going to cry. And the whole babies on a schedule thing I threw out the door before she was a week old. Marysa is our life right now and I've followed her lead on a schedule and she is doing just fine, and so are we. So I've said all that to say that we aren't always the mothers or fathers we said we would be. Babies change us...for the better. We become the parents our children need us to be and each child is different-making every parent different. The picture above we took because we planted a sunflower seed in our garden for Marysa and I often sit on the front porch rocking looking at the sunflower and how fast it has grown and it reminds me of her and how quickly she is growing. Of course as you can see the sunflower has outgrown her a little...I'm thankful she isn't growing THAT fast! We love you Marysa and Happy 6 months Birthday!
11 years ago
